miles away.

I pack my bags and say goodbye to my wife for what seems like the millionth time. They said it gets easier, but they lied. She looks at me and says "Really baby? I will be just fine," but then she looks away so I don't have to see her cry. And that is when I ask myself.

How am I supposed to be everything they expect me to be when I feel so alone, cause I left my heart at home. She needs me, but I know they need me too. So God, give me the strength to do what you created me to do.

Really I'm so thankful for the people I meet, the places I've been and the things I've seen, but when she's not here it doesn't feel like I'm living my dream. I know they say that no one is perfect, but I swear she's perfect for me and that makes it so much harder to leave.

If you miss me, I'm just a phone call away. Please be strong, be strong for me. I need you to show me how to change the inside of me. For my heart, for their sake. Be strong, be strong for me!

butterflies in my stomach.

'butterflies in my stomach.'

you always said that to me, and i feel it too. 

especially when i talk to you on the phone. or when i get around you. 

these butterflies wont get me relax, they'll keep multiply, multiply and multiply.

i still remember the days when we used to talk on the phone all day long, the days when we used to care about each other thing, the days where i used to sing a song for you. and the days when we used to share our laugh, problem, thoughts & love.

but i know that days are over. and i hate it.

congratulations, i hate you.

No one ever said that life was fair, and I'm not saying that it should be

So knowing that you are where you want to be, and I'm not, comes as no surprise

But don't expect me to be happy for you

And don't smile at me and tell me things will work out for me too

I don't want your pity

I hate your pity

Congratulations, i hate you.

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Macam Nak Simpan Wang? [REPOST]

Nak tahu macam mana cara nak simpan wang dengan betul? (betul ke? hehe.) Di sini aku nak kongsi dengan korang macam mana nak simpan wang. Sebenarnya, aku juga punya masalah dalam menyimpan @ menabung wang ni. Terus terang aku cakap, aku ni ada tabiat boros gak la. Hehe. Semua benda nak dibeli. Last2 bila aku tengok duit dalam akaun aku dah nak habis, baru aku akan menyesal kebinggungan. (Dah terhantuk, baru terngadah. Hua3.)